Should be packing for the TACL CORe event. But I need to relax for a bit. It’s been a crazy day. Need to breathe and clear my head for a bit. Was typing away and getting advice from Jason for my presentation tomorrow. Didn’t get to leave the office til almost 8.

Had a lunch date with Long, since I owed the “butch boy” (cha you wish I’m more butch than you) a meal. Went to La Veranda cuz I wanted to check out their lunch special, which they didn’t have much of, only items which you find at most Asian cafes, but it was good nonetheless. Afterwards, we were suffering major food coma.

By the time I got back, the office building maintenance was FINALLY fixing our leaky roof, well only the ceiling, the roof will be fixed HOPEFULLY soon after. Most of our staff was out either at meetings or with their significant others. My co-worker Diep was gone to New York, a gift from her new boyfriend. HOW NICE IS THAT? LUCKY! My suspicions that Alice's fiancée was getting her flowers were true, when I got to the office there were a dozed red long stemmed roses. I had a hunch since he asked me for our office’s building address the day before. The funny thing was that Alice hadn’t gotten him a present yet so I helped her printed photos with new NICE HP printer. Unfortunately, for some strange reason the print would be canceled, so I would have restart and the print would work but then I wouldn’t have any web access so I would have to restart again. FUN FUN FUN! Luckily, Alice made her present just in time. Though the rest of the staff, including myself, teased her about it. heh heh. Our intern Young was telling us how it was insane out there, people couldn’t find anymore Valentine cards, there were long lines at chocolate stores and when he went to the Century City, yesterday, there was a long ass line out of Tiffany’s. haha. It’s things like these that make me feel good to me single.>8D EVIL, that I am.

One more Anti-V.
http://www.notsosoft.com/postcard/

From the ONION
I've gone to the bad place.

http://www.starterupsteve.com/swf/Giggles_Smoochie.html

AHAHAHAHA. Yes, I’m demented. Thank you Long.

Geez how sad am I? (Don’t answer that) I’m typing up user reviews for Citysearch like a mad woman. I should get paid for this because my opinion is important. (Okay, you can stop laughing.........NOW) Anyways, I was looking at the previous reviews I had posted up there and I had so many typos and grammatical errors. (yeah yeah I know that’s not new news) Yes, me english good.

Man, my sinuses are killing me, I just want to rip them right out. ARRGH. I can just feel the headache coming.

Whatta day, I was sitting down having dinner with my family and my grandpa looks at me and says in Taiwanese “Aren’t you married?” My mom is cracking up and jokes around with my grandpa telling him that if I were, I would be at my own house, if I were married and he replies in Taiwanese, “Well, just because she’s married she doesn’t just have to eat at her own house, she can also come over.” Aiyo! Welcome to my family. I guess this beats having my grandpa telling me I’m starting to get old and how I should start looking for a boyfriend before I start turning ugly because then I won’t be able to find a husband then. Just another wacky nite at the Kuo’s

Grrrreat, just was watching the news and buncha wack ass OC Republicans were marching in my hometown for the war.

Been feeling down lately. Wasn’t in the mood to go to the City of Sin with the gang this weekend and on top of that I was pooped out from this past week. Pretty much brain dead at work on Friday. Then my old cell fell into the toilet at work cuz the freakin’ stalls are so small and I had to bring in my bag cuz Aunt Flo is visiting. Yeah, I’m having a f* great day. Thank gawd, it was a fresh bowl cuz you know how I feel about these office building restrooms. (Read my previous rant somewhere here)

So instead of feeling sorry for myself at home, I thought would get outta the house, Audrey B. had told me of a craft store called Tall Mouse and I found out they had a store in Irvine. The place rocks! I LOVE going to art and craft stores. Wanted to get more glass beads for the beaded flowers I’m getting addicted in making. I WANT ALL THE COLORS!!!!!!!! MUAHAHAHAHA. They had all these pretty wires as well, that came in all different colors. If I had the time, I would love to learn how to make jewelry. Typically, I don’t wear jewelry cuz 1) they tend to be expensive 2) they leap off my 3) fat fingers and 4) I don’t know jack about the Cs, carat, clarity…..errrrr? Someone could give me Cracker Jack ring and I wouldn’t know better.

Wanted to buy some polymer clay but thought I should pace myself and I should check out other craft store prices. Some of Tall Mouse’s items were a lil bit more expensive than other places I’ve been too. Though compare to Michael’s they have a bigger selection. One side of the room had all these acrylic paints, I didn’t look too long because I didn’t want to tempt myself. And I also want to start decorating glass, they have this cool paint that air drys and is microwaveable and all that good stuff.

Afterwards went to Barnes & Nobles to see if I could find any decent books on bead weaving but I couldn’t find any, but I completely lost myself in their other art and craft books. Hopefully this will take my mind off of the craziness that’s going on with the world and the blahness of my non-existent love life.

Yes, we’re BACK on that subject, which I’m failing miserably in, especially in the participation area. I’ve noticed when Aunt Flo is here, I tend to a get a lil bit more down easily, and so I try and check myself. Just been tough lately being that all my close friends aren’t within driving distances, like they’re literally in another state, and the other ones have significant others. Don’t really have anyone to rant and rave to. I guess thank gawd for BLOGS. Just so sick of dealing with shallow guys, remember those days in PE, where there were 2 team captains and they would choose who they would want on their team. I totally know what it’s like to be picked last or not being chosen at all. Yeah, yeah I’m being a drama queen, where’s the violins? But shoot, since I don’t drink, smoke or do drugs, this is how I deal with this. Maybe, I should join the NRA or something. I’M KIDDING!

But this site http://nickname.has-a-small-penis.com, did make me feel a lil better, was reading URB and saw this as one of their links. So if you know some jerk, just type in their name or nickname in that area. And then Viola! But man those pics did remind me of some ppl.......Yes, I’m Evil. And yes, I’m feeling a lil better >8) (note: I don’t hate all men, there are some decent ones but they’re all hooked up.)

Now back to our scheduled program……………..
Sat. Feb. 1
Spoke at UCI’s 18th annual Asian Pacific American Awareness Conference (APAAC) on the behalf of MANAA. Had to improvise a bit since Edwin’s car was having problems and he had the MANAA video. And I had planned the workshop with the video in the beginning and I was under the impression there would be more MANAA members, so I had to stall. On the workshop I would only give myself a 7 and I’m being generous. I couldn’t believe what Edwin said in our workshop. But we had a bunch students stay afterwards and talk. Meet some cool people from SDSU. So I guess we weren’t too bad. Afterwards had to clear the air with one of the students due to a misunderstanding, but was glad he approached us about it, then let it go. Dialogue is good and too often doesn’t happen enough in real life.

It’s weird now that I’m older, I know more speakers, than students. Well, I did help John with getting a couple of the speakers' contact info. Ran into Shazeen, Manjuri, Dennis, and as well Sunny, who was back from China. Hopefully she’ll kick some sense into these UCI students.

Tues. Feb. 7
Was invited to speak at UCLA’s Thien Minh Ly’s commemoration at the last minute. Meg had given one of the organizers my contact info. Was wondering why they didn’t contact APALC but I found out thru Dennis, they had also contacted him at the last minute too and he couldn’t. Traffic on the 405 wasn’t too bad, so I was happy.

Man, Westwood and UCLA has changed a bit. BTW I am so outta shape, was walking to Kerckhoff from behind Ackerman and those steps killed me. Probably would have been worse, if I hadn’t been going to the gym. Anyways, ran into Jenni, had a nice lil chat with her, she was giving a spoken word piece at the end. That girl, is still such a sweetie. Also found out that they had also invited one of Thien Minh Ly’s friend Mai Pham, who was very active and helped get the word out about Thien Minh Ly’s death to the UCLA campus since the Daily bRUIN didn’t do their job. It was great meeting her; I hope I never lose someone close to me like she did because it still hurts for her. Found out the Thien’s family still lives in the same house in Tustin and that his sister and her husband are stationed in Kuwait. So please pray for that family since they’ve gone thru enough tragedy. I think I did a better job giving a presentation this time than UCI, though I wonder if I was too aggressive. Found out one of the organizers was ALSO a classmate of mines, can’t remember what class though. Got to meet the rest of the VSU staff, great bunch. Also ran into Kim To, as well as someone that knew of OCAPICA thru Shawn.

Oh, before I go onto the rest of my updates. I’M REALLY ANNOYED by the Asian American Studies community sometimes and how they treat Taiwanese Americans, like we aren’t legit. WHAT THE FUCK! I’m so sick how they marginalized some groups or are very selective what groups are featured. I deal with waaay too much bullshit. Don’t tell me what Asian American Studies is, all you hypocrites that tote power thru self-determination, I define who I am.

Something else that’s also been annoying me is the lack of protest from the APIA community for the Maxim article. Besides OCAPICA, MANAA, ACON and few other APIA groups and of course the South Asian community, I haven’t seen much response like Yao Ming and Shaq deal. Grrrrrrr. But I’m not done with Maxim yet, advertisers watch out, when Jen’s pissed off, I get shit done.

Updates updates:

Friday, Jan. 31
Restarted OCAPICA Youth Coffeehouse for the year, I had been looking for a new location since the Garden Grove Boys & Girls Club Family site was going to be unavailable to us for awhile. Tried to hook something up at the Grand Central Art Center, but I decided not to since we would have to pay for someone to close, even though insiders in CSUF, tell me CSUF has the budget to pay for something like that. But I’m going to keep the location for future special events because I love Santa Ana’s Artists Village. So we had Coffeehouse at the OC Youth Drop-In Center. (Mucho grassy asses to Rick)

Didn’t know what the turnout was going to be since I was a dork and planned Coffeehouse on Lunar New Year’s Eve (Doh! Come on not all API youth celebrate Lunar New Year). Then, being that we hadn’t had a Coffeehouse since August and we were having it at a new location probably didn’t help and on top of that one of youth organizers had a family emergency so couldn’t attend.

So I was a lil stressing especially since I was pretty much the only staff running the show. With the help of our youth volunteers quickly and may I say creatively, made signs from leftover fliers to create an arrow pointing where the Youth Drop-In Center was since you need to buzz in to enter. If you’ve been, you know what I mean. Anyways, only a handful of youth came out, mostly college students were in attendance. I was impressed that Paul and his friend came out. It’s nice to know people that keep their word when they say, they’re going to come and do. Sorry, I’ve meet waaaaaay too many flakes this past year. But then again Paul seems like a man of character. He really got kicked out of our Got Ballz men’s health flier.

Rhianne and her group performed a spoken word piece and song, as did Shawn’s friends; he meet at the F.O.B. exhibit, one of them was a classmate of mines at UCLA. (Yes, small world) C also performed a powerful and personal spoken word piece about her experience about rape, which I had no idea about.

We had a lively discussion about rape to politics to homelessness; I know I learned something that night. Was glad I wasn’t really facilitator since it’s easier for me to have a more objective perspective. It’s really hard for me to mc sometimes since some issues are so personal to me; I get too often on my soapbox. ;p So in some sense I was in a way a facilitator since I could step out of the picture and I could see how I can be like when I get on soapbox. ;p

One thing that irked me a bit was when one guy said he wasn’t political and (yes, I’m getting on my soapbox and I can cuz it’s my DAMM BLOG ;p) I get really annoyed when I hear people say this, especially I noticed so many API say this, don’t you people understand it’s your civic duty and it’s privileged to be whatever it means be “political”. (I swear the next person that says this I’m going to call them out on it and ask them what do you mean by being “political.”) People have fought so hard and died not to realize they were doing it for such an apathetic group. It’s people like this that let our society go to hell, this is why f* idiots run our county, as well as our country. You doing nothing is doing something. ARRRGH. Gotta say my piece.