Fuck, why do I tolerate and allow myself to be treated like shit by ppl? Why do I continue to care about ppl that never really cared about me? Why don't I learn? Why am I so foolish? Where are all the decent ppl in this world? Yesterday was hell and I had to go thru it 3 different times. I don't even know where to start. FUCK LOVE. I'm so tired. So tired about being used. So tired about being forgotten. So tired of being the understanding one but not being understood. So tired of lending an ear but not being listen to. So tired of remembering ppl's birthdays but them never remembering mines. So tired of broken and empty promises. So tired of always being there for ppl but ppl not being there for me. So tired of not being the one. I'm just so tired.

I don't know how I'm going to have the energy to go to work today or present tomorrow. I'm pretty much a basketcase right now.